Drugs and Rock and Roll Discharge......

 Keep your silly ways or throw them out the window

The wisdom of your ways, I've been there and I know

Lots of other ways, what a jolly bad show

If all you ever do is business you don't like

Ian Dury and The Blockheads. Sex and Drugs and Rock and Roll.

Another night of really violent and frightening dreams. They seem so real it takes a while to comeback to the here and now when I wake and realise they were simply dreams.

Felt okay, had a relaxing bath and a pretty chilled morning. I sat in the sun, in the back garden and jotted a few notes on my phone to remind myself what I wanted to discuss during my appointment in the afternoon with the Mental Health Crisis Team Consultant Psychiatrist. 

2pm and I sat with my wife, or carer as her NHS label reads, for our NHS Attend Anywhere appointment. The tech worked fine this time, having crashed five times on the last appointment!

DRUGS

We reviewed progress and meds. Stop Fluoxetine immediately. Hooray! Reduce Diazepam. Hooray! Continue on Mirtazapine 30mg as it has quickly lifted my mood. Hooray!

Good conversation and confirmation this would be my last consultation as she will be discharging me to the care of CMHT. Hooray again!

The speed of how I’ve gone from torment and mental health crisis, to a relative and tolerable sense of calm has been quicker than all expected. The one disappointment is it took so long for us to get the meds both myself and my wife asked for the moment I was assessed on Sept 3rd.

After the meeting my wife and I high fived. It felt like a huge relief to be told what we already knew, I was on the road to recovery.

Anyway, I’m looking  at positives now and I’m positive I’m wanting to help TEWV improve their processes and their communications. I replied to an email from a senior manager who’s invited to meet. We’re likely going to do so on a date after the board of governors meeting has taken place.

I did a couple of live social media pieces with the news of my progress, to thank all those who have engaged and offered support, and to reassure friends that my mental health is on the mend.

Caught up with social media messages, got frustrated at simple errors on TEWV’s #OneBigConversation webpages, but fair play, got an apology and most of the errors are now fixed.

ROCK AND ROLL

Relaxed in the evening with a BBQ and was lucky enough to be able to film up close, about three feet away in fact, ( &our resident hedgehog having his evening snack that is left out for him. Lovely to watch and a relaxing end to a big day. Listened to some music, including some good old rock and roll.

Today I’m meeting with the Crisis Team and a person from the Community Mental Health Team, who is likely to be my key worker for the next few weeks. I’m looking forward to it and will ask my wife to be part of the meeting too, so we can be clear on our plans, starting with having a clear agreement of what actions will be taken should I relapse and have a crisis.

So as promised yesterday, I’ve talked about drugs, I’ve talked about rock and roll.

Rumour is Salt ‘n’ Pepper are favourites for tomorrow’s band lyrics quote. Who knows 😉

Love and peace

Blot x